Expectation

It's about expecting too much on someone. Hahahhaa. 

Okay. On September, I played badminton with my friend. 2 girls and 1 boy. That boy, or he's my friend, my instagram friend. So at the time, that is my first meeting between me and him.

After badminton, he sent a message to me, and he told me, he interested on me. From that time, he always sent me a message everyday, and sometimes we did a voice call for more 2 hours at night. I think I did a voice call with him 5 times. We talked a lot about everything. 

And one day, he invite me to go out for dinner after I work. One time, the invitation was failed,  because he said he still busy on his work. So we changed the day to tomorrow, but he didn't keeping his promises until now. And he also not sent me a message as before. I don't know why he did it to me. But I think I have a crush on him, but he softly leave. Hahahahha. 

And a few days ago, I sent a message to him on instagram, to ask about his invitation to go out before. But he only read my message. And yesterday I also sent a job vacancy to him, and he did it again. He just saw my message, without replying. 

Honestly, I'm a person who easily to expecting someone new in my life. And now I have a crush on him, but he softly leave on my life. 

It was hurting me so bad, but sometimes I laughed because why I can did this, why I know him, why I expecting him so bad. 

The conclusion is he disappear. Hahaha like Bee Gees's song

"and you come to me on a summer breeze,  keep me warm in your love, then you softly leave."

Okay, Buni was got a trap. 

Okay, I just know about "expecting someone". In the other hand, I don't wanna expecting him like this. But I did it. Hahaha.

I think I'm forgot about "Just expect into Allah" 

وَإِلَىٰ رَبِّكَ فَٱرْغَب ٨

turning to your Lord ˹alone˺ with hope.

Expecting into someone, just can make you disappointed and hurt.